Please enjoy this guest post by Sophia Gubb.
I’ve been on a spiritual path for several years now. It was a rocky road.
At about eighteen, I had a breakthrough. After 5 years of struggling to find an answer to my ongoing existential crisis, I realised that I had been wrong about everything.
I mean everything. I mean, the Universe.
I realised that I had been wrong that everything was clockwork, impersonal, Newtonian.
I was wrong that consciousness was some sort of illusion, some sort of glitch in an otherwise purposeless computer-on-legs.
Everything was consciousness.
Nothing was clockwork, not in ultimate essence. Clockwork was just part of the dream.
When Your Path Takes You Places You Don’t Expect
The Universe’s ultimate reality is the dream of consciousness, or God, and I, my body, mind and soul, were intimately a part of that. As the Bible says God made Man in His Image, and so the dream of consciousness made us and everything around a reflection of the Ultimate Reality.
Through the Law of Attraction we can exercise our God-power over the dream, and as we grow to relate deeper with our essence as reflections of God, our ability to use that power grows.
So I learnt. I had read it in several places, pieced the ideas together. It made sense for two reasons:
1. Consciousness existed, I could sense it. And nothing in my old reality explained consciousness. Robots aren’t conscious, no matter how complex we make them. So the idea of us being meaningless biological robots, explained nothing. Consciousness remained an anomaly.
2. I experienced proof that reality didn’t work as I had thought before.
This proof came flooding in in many ways but it began with a psychic medium who told me things that she could not possibly, possibly have known about me. And she told me messages from my spirit guides. In this way, she validated that spirits existed, and from there, I knew that a whole slew of things I had been denying had to be true.
The afterlife exists. Reincarnation. Eternity.
Divine guidance. Divine purpose.
I was a lot to pile onto a young lady all at once.
Well, it did take a long time to integrate it all. In some ways, I’m still on it.
For a while the information didn’t make me more balanced, it made me less so. I went deeper into my existential pain, deeper into my solitude and darkness. I tried to meditate and reach high states of awareness, all the while failing to confront my real life, practical problems.
I guess I had been used to feeling like I was special for being smart, most of my life. When I found out there was a new quality that trumped smartness, I guess I became a bit obsessed. More obsessed than I already had been, I mean.
My first attempt to reach transcendental reality quickly ended in a serious slap in the face from reality. I realised I had to care for my more pressing needs, and made big moves to change the negative environment I had been steeping in.
I came to a new city, new friends, a new life.
Again, I resisted getting my feet on my ground and tending to my needs. I wanted to live a spiritual life.
Again, I got a slap in the face from reality. I couldn’t live a spiritual life solely without tending to my material needs.
Slowly, I got the message. Each time reality slapped me in the face, the slap was more gentle, because I was gradually moving closer to the right path.
I did realise some of my God-power to influence my life. As I became more in tune with the flow of my life, I became more in tune with my God-power to influence it. That’s one of the things that they miss in the teachings on the Law of Attraction: you have to surrender to the Universe to command it.
So bit by bit I got my feet more on the ground, cared for my needs more, and became more powerful. I’m still on that path now, but happy, feeling my power strongly.
The funny thing is, somewhere along that path I realised I didn’t just want to reach transcendental reality and become a spiritual master. I also had another purpose to my life, perhaps even more important than the other one (though not excluding it).
My purpose is to share and provide what help I can to others on the path. Living as one in the shared stream of life, I couldn’t focus on my own path of growth while neglecting the paths of others. And yes, somehow, while not reaching any sort of final conclusion (will there ever be one?), my path of growth turned out to already have furnished me with enough knowledge to be beginning with.
So long as I write and speak from my heart, I have found, I can help people.
So think about all this. Is your spiritual path keeping you from taking care of your needs? Are you resisting the flow of life which the Universe guides you into? If you get those “slaps” from reality, how do you respond to them? Are you getting the Universe’s message?
Have you been too narrow-focused? Is your purpose just about growing spiritually, or do you have something you can already share? Is reality guiding you in that direction?
Could it be that we’re not just here to be humble bodhisattvas, but glorious co-creators of spiritual light in a constantly evolving world?
I am sure there is not just one answer to this. I leave it to you to come to your own ideas.
Sophia Gubb is a quirky, sometimes brazen initiator of change in her life and others. Born in the UK, she is now based in Berlin, Germany as she works as a full time blogger. She writes about a wide scope of topics, all at least somewhat to do with raising consciousness — at both personal and planetary levels — at SophiaGubb.com